I am in a really hard place right now.  Here is a little back round.  The father of my son and I have been together for 3 years.  About a year ago we got pregnant, it wasn’t planned.  So the whole pregnancy was fine, and then came our little bundle of joy, everything changed of course!  All the while he was assuring me that he would help with our son, diapers, feeding, bathing, and everything else t

hat comes with a new born; when he came I got nothing…So here we are our son is almost a year old, and he keeps saying he wants to help more, he will stop drinking so much and he wants to be there for me and the baby.  All of this is not being supported by any of his actions.  When he gets home from work, he works hard labor by the way, he won’t go and shower.  He will drink his few beers, gamble with the guys, all while I am tending to our baby 24 hours a day 7 days a week.  I am a stay at home mom, which I am totally grateful for.  But I would like a little break every now and again.  So any way, we are here with his family on the east coast while my family is on the west coast.    All of this has made me want to go home to my family with our son.  Since we are not married I feel like I need to do what I need to do.  I am trying to raise our son the best that I can and I defiantly don’t want him to be raised in an alcoholic environment.  At the same time I already feel like a single parent.  I get no help, support or “good job”, and at the end of the day, I feel depressed and alone.  I miss my mom and my brothers and I am ready to go home.  All of this has made me fall out of love with the man I met before our child came.  I know that it is best for a child to have both parents in his life, but when the other half isn’t always looking out for our best interests what should be done?  I want to go, but I hate the thought of taking our son away.  What am I to do?  Stay with him for the sake of our son having his father and me being miserable and depressed therefore not giving my son all of me.  Or do I go so my son gets all of me and I am able to be the best mom I can, not depressed, not unhappy, but living life to the fullest.  Any words of wisdom? HELP!