My grandparents lived on Spring Street since the day they got married. They lived there through World War II, when Grampa left for Europe with the Army. He returned to his wife and a toddler son he never met, the jagged memory of a German bayonet sprawled across his chest. He got a job at the High School as a janitor, fathered another son, but he never mentioned the war, not like his bunker buddies down at the Polish Club, not once over sixty years. When he died last year, he left behind a safe deposit box with two important medals of valor under a faded American flag. No one knew he earned them. No one in my family knows why, knows how.
When I think of Spring Street, I don't think of the short road connecting the main drag to the elm-lined state college perimeter. I don't think of the rusty train that coughs and wails at the corner station. I just think of my grandparents and their house, an old New England three-tenement building that stands after years of love and neglect, all rolled into some solitary emotion. Spring Street means overgrown lilacs and stacks of molding egg cartons filled with the golf balls Grampa found on the college campus. Spring Street means Gramma rolling dough for pizza and Grampa diving for simple treasure in the dumpsters behind the strip mall adjoining his property. Spring Street means radio.
Grampa taught me how to live in the moment. He was never bored. He always had something to do, even if the something was sitting in his parlor reading a Louis LAmour mystery book for hours or listening to endless Red Sox games on a radio turned up way too high. That radio meant life and death to Grampa. He told me stories of life in the foxholes, life with a bayonet in one hand, a radio beside him, a radio that echoed the machinery of war.
Grampa taught me to waltz every Sunday night when the radio played songs from old Poland. The music crackled, sounded sweet and sure, as if God split the heavens with a lightning bolt and gave us a secret listen to His world. Every Tuesday night mean a ballgame, Wednesdays were cowboy songs, Thursdays were big bands, the rat pack. My Grampa's life revolved around radio. He took communion Saturday nights at St. Francis and kept walking, kept walking, wafer on tongue, out the door, straight home so he wouldn't miss comedy hour.
I captured my Grampa's love of radio - taught my boys to seek out good music, good shows with a twist of the dial. When the internet opened the door to podcasting, I started my own crazy show, filled with music and good stories. Every day I click over to my favorite internet stations and listen to bluegrass, alternative folk, the music that Top 40 doesn't allow, that commercial interest doesn't love.
Two summers ago I drove my three sons 8,500 miles in one month, visiting all of our relatives along the way, our most important destination being Grampa's house on Spring Street. The entire trip I told my sons how much fun I had with Grampa when I was a young girl. They didn't believe me. They didn't think an old man with a crooked nose and dirty fingernails who could barely hear them on the telephone could be very much fun. They didn't remember the way Grampa swung them higher than the sky, the nights laying on his couch listening to the radio. When we reached his house, the first thing I did was notice the silence.
"Grampa! Why don't you have the radio on?"
He glared at the machine, as if it were a spurned lover.
"Birdie, they don't play my music anymore. Just listen. Turn it on and listen."
I switched the dial, clicked from one station to the next, as the old-fashioned brown box spit out rap, out top-40, out once commercial after another. The era had passed.
I pointed to the computer on Grampa's desk, the one my parents bought him, the one he refused to use. I made him sit next to me, boys to the left and right of us, wile I showed him how to listen to internet radio, to REAL radio, once more. I bookmarked stations devoted to old-timey music, to Polish polka, to his beloved Red Sox.
When we drove out of the driveway, our windows rolled down, we all yelled "Bye, Grampa!"
But Grampa shook his head and corrected us.
"Never say Goodbye. Just say See You Later."
He hustled inside, didn't wait to wave goodbye. Just like Saturday night church, everything was second to the radio.
Grampa lived on his own, in his same Spring Street home, until six weeks before his death. I thought he would live forever. He passed before my sons could see him one more time. I flew to see him, at a time close to his death, when he lay in a hospital bed, his arms bruised from too many needle pricks, too many attempts to make an old heart work. I scratched off a lottery ticket I bought for him at a convenience store, and we laughed when he won three dollars. I knew it was the last time I would see him alive. I wanted to stay at his side, wanted to hold his hand forever, until Gramma caught it again up in heaven. I didn't want to say goodbye. So I said the only thing I could.
"See you later, Grampa. I bet you hear awesome radio in heaven."
Today is an Internet Radio Day of Silence. The same way that big corporations stole the small town stations that played Grampa's music, big music companies are trying to steal the music once again.
Please turn off your internet radio today in solidarity. Don't let the music stop forever, don't let it morph commercial, forgotten.
Birdie Jaworski is on the BlogHer '07 Art of Storytelling panel. She blogs at La Pajaro.
Comments
Thanks Birdie
Thank you for this, as always, beautiful story and eloquent expression of why we as fans and listeners need to resist the effort of the music industry to force upstarts and new technology into an existing business model that doesn't even necessarily serve the dinosaurs well.
And you've brought to my mind thoughts of both my grandmothers - one of whom my defining memory is the box radio in her dining room which always played classical music. I can't imagine that house without that radio playing. And my other grandmother who will not allow us to buy her a new radio to replace her held together by duct tape portable transistor because she cannot trust that a newfangled gadget will sound as sweet under her pillow every night serenading her off to sleep.
Radio was our parents/grandparents "youtube,"
"myspace"
Maria, I'm so touched reading your account of your grandmothers. It makes me cry, remembering my grandfather, knowing that era has dissipated. I hope that rules and regs don't keep us from sharing our identity and heritage through internet radio. Big hugs, honey!
Birdie
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Beauty Dish
That big old radio
was a piece of important furniture. The chairs were arranged for good listening. The dusty cloth behind the wood grill protecting the lone speaker was the only thing to look at except your fingernails. But you could sit on the floor with your toys and play right in front of it. Amos and Andy, The Shadow, Bobby Benson and the B–B Ranch, The Breakfast Club, big band music. Yeah. Those were the days.
Now I walk with my radio hitched to my pants pocket, tiny speakers in my ears giving me the latest podcast of Fresh Air. But not today. Nope. No internet radio today.
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Virginia, what beautiful memories
I love listening to old The Shadow shows with my boys. We're hooked on old-timey radio in a big way. My boy, 12, wears an ipod, but 10 and I turn up the speakers loud and fill the house with sound. What a great time to be alive!
Thanks for honoring Turn Off the Music Day!! xo!
Birdie
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Silent radio today
Birdie, as usual, your writing makes me read it over and over again just for the pleasure of reading it.
AND the message is important.
I think back to my 1963 grey 'leather' covered portable Silvertone" transistor radio which was my jr. high school graduation present. I remember dancing in my bedroom with my dreams as a partner as the radio played "Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow" or "Ebb Tide" or "Wipeout". I was a dancing diva, in an imaginary spotlight, dancing myself away from anything that made my world less than perfect. The DJs were mythic creatures with names like Sandy Beach or Wolfman. The sponsors were local stores we all used, the stationary shop or the A&W rootbeer drive-in. And at night the classical music would send me off to sleep.
No radio today.
~~ Contributing Editor, Mata H. also blogs relentlessly at Time's Fool
Mata, I would dance with you!
Are you going to BlogHer? We need to have a pajama party with dancing and karaoke, don't ya think? Your comment brought me back to my teenage years, where I danced like crazy to the Clash, to the Police, anything my parents hated, ha ha! Big hugs!
Birdie
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sigh
Nope, Birdie, not going to this BlogHer -- I am in the throes of looking for a house, getting my mother's antiques sold off, starting up a small business, changing almost everything I am used to...so my bundle of things to do is about ready to crack these old bones as it is. I'd love to come to BlogHer and would love to meet you too!! I so wish I could be there, but it couldn't happen at a more congested/stressed out time for me. If I email you my phone number could y'all at least call from the pajama party and pass the phone around?
Hugs backatcha.
~ Contributing Editor, Mata H. also blogs relentlessly at Time's Fool
Mata, email me! We'll do Pajamas-By-Phone!
I'm dancing like crazy! I just found out that a book of my short stories will be published!! It's not my memoir, but another little book of local fun. :)
Send me an email (littlebirdie at mac dot com) and I'll send you my contact info too.
Birdie
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I feel as though I missed out
I'm just old enough to remember when nearly every radio station was not owned by Clear Channel. One oddball station I loved in high school played a mess of music ranging from the Talking Heads to the Monkees to De La Soul and back again. Of course that station didn't last long. It was bought by Fox and morphed into a Top 40 station -- the third, I think, in my city.
About a dozen years later I discovered WOXY and WFMU online. I was incredulous that such variety existed.
kperfetto, that must have been an awesome
station
Man, I love the Talking Heads, loved them then, love them now. WOXY rocks! Internet radio saves lives, I just know it. I hope we're not coming to another end of an era.
Birdie
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Olde Time Radio
My iPod is LOADED, LOADED I tellya, with old time radio. And I have fond childhood memories of being bunked in the backyard on summer nights listening to EG Marshall on Mystery Radio Theater. Radio of the kind you mention isn't dead at all, it's totally revived on the Internet. Which is why I hate that it's under the gun. I hope your Grampa has awesome radio in heaven and I hope that we feed the revival of radio on the web.
Thanks for posting this.
Smooches and radio to you.
Pam
Nerd's Eye View
Pam! Mystery Radio Theatre ROCKS!
Oh, I LOVE that, and so do my boys! We also love the Have Gun Will Travel radio episodes, and all the wonky sci-fi (B-grade would be too kind an assessment). You're so right that the internet has brought about a revival and new appreciation of the form. I hope we're not facing the end of it.
Birdie
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